things:
move again. this time to an adorable 1925 bungalow almost near downtown with hardwood floors and a front and back porch and it has the most awesome tree ever out back. my room is enormous, with two small built in bookcases and a fireplace, and my own bathroom. hoping for a housewarming party soon.

completely unmotivated when it comes to all school related matters.

my orlando personal life is one big jumble. relationships with exs abound and he now lives in a space she used to occupy. that room has bad juju, i swear. i don't even want to go over there. i need to find a pretty lady to have some fun with on the side.

my bank account is anemic and i need to find a second job asap.

i miss my family and far flung friends and my dog.

my life is missing a certain existence-affirming spark. it's times like these i wish i was religious, at least i'd have something to hold on to.

these past few years have been trying.
i don't expect 2010 to be a cakewalk but i am hoping for the best year in a very long while.

been digging into archives.
i should probably stop this as it's rather upsetting.

i'm not very good about not dwelling on the past but lately i've been incredibly present/future oriented.
soon i'll have a new apartment to share with a new person. also, orlando might end up being my home for years and years.

the holidays haven't been good for my waistline (i've probably gained 5 or so pounds) but it doesn't matter much now. i'm not with someone that makes me feel like shit if i go over 105.